―Jim Morrison (1968, Detroit): "Can any Hell be more horrible than now, in reality? Me and the devil gonna take you on a long and evil ride. Well we are all in the cosmic movie, you know that means the day you die you got to watch your whole life recurring eternally so you better have some good story happening and a fitting climax."
Johann Sebastian Bach’s unaccompanied violin sonatas bear complex simplicity like an ameba. An ameba is intensely complex though it consists of just one cell. Its one cell’s operations & manifestations are stunningly diverse & near-infinitely metamorphic. Yet always it follows the program of its genes. Just so many of Bach’s “simpler” pieces. In every living cell, a complex chemical/bioenergetic event — the Krebs cycle — occurs in a complex sequence that changes ever as the cell matures & journeys toward death. The Krebs cycle produces energy, almost mysteriously as photosynthesis supplies the power of life of plants. The whole array is an immense, kaleidoscopic, complex, organic counterpoint, like Bach’s complex contrapuntal works. The whole produces, and reflects as, one of the vital energy-forms of the creature the cells compose. Complex music occurs as vertical, horizontal, internal/external/inside/outside/forward/backward, ever-changing yet magnificently ordered complex dialectic of interacting moving shapes. Complex music, like Bach’s, lives as moving multiplicities of molecular shapes — like the Krebs cycle’s music of molecular transformations & the complexly manifesting organic energy produced. Organic multiplicities of moving molecular shapes, kaleidoscopic shapes, dancing with each other, like symbiotic organisms: Sadness is a sound — a moving sonic shape. True music stirs feelings & emotions, apprehending the wonder & complexity — the miracle — of the biochemistry of a living creature or losing oneself in the infinite arrays of moving colored shapes of a kaleidoscope. Very complex music is like magnificent architecture that inspires unbearable awe though it (the architecture, itself) neither portrays feeling nor emotion. Emotions are judgments reacting to external events or internal feelings, as if emotions “represent” or “express” feelings. Emotions occur in the frontal lobe, in quite the place that produces logic. Feeling are biochemical/bioenergetic events, like heartbeats or flows of hormone or instances of the Krebs cycle. Feeling is like a piece of architecture. Emotion is a judgment reacting to that architecture. True music is like an instance of pure feeling or a piece of architecture. It may stir feeling or emotion, but it is neither. True music occurs as kaleidoscopic architecture formed with sound. If the shape moves a listener to tears, it moves the listener to tears because of the listener’s reaction associating the down-curving shape with an unbearable sense of love lost. —Classical Music Corner (Steve Hoffman Forum)
—Immanuel Kant (Critique of Pure Reason, 1781): "A mind without concepts would have no capacity to think; equally, a mind armed with concepts, but with no sensory data to be applied, would have nothing to think about. Man is responsible for his wellbeing and if he does not behave accordingly, he is betraying his own humanness."
Those with borderline personality disorder have problems regulating emotional impulses and often experience rocky relationships. But new research suggests that many men find traits associated with borderline personality disorder to be appealing in physically attractive women. The study has been published online in the journal Personality and Individual Differences (published on 12 March, 2020). The relationship with a Borderline Personality Disorder sufferer is like a roller coaster where the highs are very high and the lows are very low — this is why people probably stay in these types of relationships, because of the uncertainty and drama. In line with previous research, Blanchard and her colleagues found that amenable personality traits and wealth status were the most important factors in predicting dating appeal among female participants. Women in the study tended to prefer partners who were high in wealth and low in psychopathic traits. “Women are more discerning when choosing a partner, likely because an unreliable partner would have adverse outcomes for her and her child. Previous research had been equivocal with regards to whether women are attracted to bad boys, and the findings from this study suggest they are not, at least in comparison to men who are less discerning,” Blanchard said. For men, attractiveness was the most important factor in predicting dating appeal. Men viewed physically attractive women who were high in borderline personality traits to be more appealing than women who were less physically attractive and low in borderline personality traits. Source: www.psypost.org
"Unhappy girl/Left all alone/Playin' solitaire/Playin' warden to your soul/You are locked in a prison of your own device/And you can't believe what it does to me/To see you crying." (Jim Morrison, Unhappy Girl, The Doors' Strange Days, 1967)
Patricia Butler: When Pam met Jim Morrison in the summer of 1965, she obviously saw him through the eyes of a young woman in love, but she certainly wasn't blind to his faults or oddities. Jim met Pam before he was famous and stayed with her until his death. Although I am inclined to think both suffered from Borderline Personality Disorder, their personalities differed in temper and attitude. Pam was very shy and secretive. She instinctively distrusted nosy or sycophantic people around Jim. So there was a Jim's side (which was enhanced by his portentous fame) she began to dislike. The posturing, the public mugging, she detested it, I think. Jim would have wanted to show her off more in public, but she was reticent and didn't enjoy being in company of his entourage. He dedicated all his poetry books to her and most of his classic songs: "Indian Summer", "L.A. Woman", "Love Street", "Orange County Suite", "Twentieth Century Fox", "Queen of the Highway", "You Are Lost, Little Girl," "We Could Be So Good Together", "Blue Sunday", "Wild Child", "Unhappy Girl," "I will never be Untrue," etc. He gave her about anything she wanted and, whenever she got mad and left him, he went after her to bring her back. Jim told his closest allies that Pamela was the one person who'd "gotten under his skin," the one he felt he could spend the rest of his life with, and he made plans to do just that, leaving the country to be with her in Paris and writing his last letter to his parents home saying how happy they were. Sadly, he died shortly after writing this letter.
Even if Pam and Jim sometimes had a twisted relationship, they still went back to each other and shared a bond no other woman could touch. So what if Jim had some sex action with Judy Huddleston, Peggy Green or assorted female followers? Big deal for a sex-charged rock star! And even when he was with his lovers he often bragged about Pam. Patricia Kennealy was one more in a long line of "outside interests". I never understood why Danny Sugerman referred to himself as 'Denny' in the book NOHGOA, which does appear to have an unsympathetic look at Jim. Al Graham (Jim's sister Anne's ex-husband) said in 2010 Jim Morrison had fired Danny Sugerman from his desk job at The Doors office. Sugerman never mentioned this little detail, but it gives credit to Frank Lisciandro's opinion that Morrison couldn't stand Sugerman. “127 Fascination” was the label on a metal box Pamela Courson left in a San Francisco bank after Jim’s death that contained some poems he had been working on in Paris. In 1980, Randy Ralston, an ex-boyfriend of Pam, retrieved the box, authorized by the Coursons. Rumor is that some of its contents were split up and the bulk of it was returned to the Coursons while the rest was sold to private collectors. The “127 Fascination” label has never really been explained. It may have just been a title Jim came up with for his poetry, or a label Pam put on the box. Due to the professional secret with his patient, to learn information about Pam's mental deterioration was like pulling teeth from her psychiatrist Dr. Ackerman, but I gathered Pamela, like Jim Morrison, suffered from borderline disorder.
Dissociation Identity Disorder occurs when a person experiences a lack of connection between their thoughts, memory, and overall sense of identity, as explained by Mental Health America (MHA). Oftentimes, dissociation is often described as watching oneself in a movie or feeling as though one is outside of one’s body; milder forms of dissociation often occur when a person gets lost in their thoughts (also known as daydreaming) or becomes entrenched in a fantasy. MHA states that over 20% of population have experienced dissociative experiences at some point. Dissociation occurs more often in some mental disorders, however, such as bipolar disorder, borderline personality disorder and schizophrenia. Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD) is a serious mental illness characterized by unstable mood swings, behavior, and self-perception. People with this disorder may experience feelings of worthlessness, insecurity, impulsivity and suicidal tendencies. A 2017 study published in the European Journal of Trauma & Dissociation emphasized a strong link between BPD, childhood trauma, and ongoing dissociation. BPD is often misdiagnosed, because the symptoms can easily appear in other disorders. The symptoms of borderline personality disorder are a cry for help to resolve deep, inconsolable pain most often inspired by early childhood occurences of real or perceived abandonment. Primary Structural Dissociation consists of a host personality (the Apparently Normal Personality) and adjacents Emotional Parts of the Personality (EPs). There are many similarities between Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD) and Dissociation Identity Disorder (DID), and DID and BPD have often been reported to occur comorbidly. Individuals with DIDs and BPD also frequently experience major fluctuations in identity and emotional states, depersonalization and derealization during stress, as well as exhibit high rates of self-harm and suicidality. Although DID patients are associated with tremendous suffering, including the loss of a continuous sense of one’s self and one’s memory, some theorists suggest that dissociation provides protection from the overwhelming danger of tumultuous emotional chaos, and is needed for survival. Source: bpded.biomedcentral.com
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